I’m an idiot.
I’ve overdone it yet again.
I’ve thrown myself too deeply into too many things. Work, Summer Madness, Streetreach, assorted internet stuff.
So I’m currently home nursing a bad cold, mild tonsilitis, and not sleeping well.
I am also broke, and wondering how I will survive until my bank loan is paid off in two years, because my outgoings keep going up in price more than my pay goes up (the price of being a civil servant). I’m subsisting, and I can’t even afford to go to the dentist or the optician – both of which are loads overdue.
On top of that, my emotional health and spiritual health have taken a nosedive as well.
With everything that’s happened this year, my spiritual health is stillbetter than it has been in the past, but I’m still hitting burnout too often. The big one was 2001, but about twice a year since I’ve hit rough spots. Last two times were last autumn when I had high blood pressure (at least partly precipitated by the Ignite forums… sorry, but it has to be said), and February this year after Becky and I broke up – although that was helped so much by the number of people praying for me.
I’m going to be taking it easy for a while. I expect I’ll be off sick for a few days at least, will see the doctor later in the week if I’m not better… but meantime please pray.